![]() ![]() ![]() And no matter how much you meditate, do yoga and undergo therapy, this will never change. You are the very charm that my heart and mind recognize. ![]() This is who you are: an aging, sad, sneaky, devious man who travels from one hotel to another, putting on a face for strangers, living out of a suitcase, having no real home and no connections, lying to others, lying to himself. My love, The moment it struck me that what we had was true love was when I began to care deeply for someone other than myself, and all the love songs I heard became all about you. And tells her the breakup was about "something I just can't put my finger on." And projects onto his girlfriend that she was the untrustworthy one. I may never be the most gorgeous woman in the room, but you make me feel like I am. I hope you befriend people who will cherish you without having to whisper bitterly about you. I hope you can find joy in your heart without having your hands dig for sorrow. I hope you can learn to laugh again around people you don’t secretly detest. A 40-year-old man of mediocre accomplishment who's incapable of true intimacy, who casually lies and cheats, who's being sued by his own aunt, who hardly has the love of his own family, who has few friends and no community to speak of, who's been living in his musty, forgotten childhood home in suburban New Jersey for almost a year, alone, at 40, who isn't even close to his ultimate dream of a book deal, who is frail, insecure, pathetic, tortured, has no moral fiber, who's dissatisfied with his career and is constantly traveling to corporate wastelands.Īnd then a woman comes along and tries to love him, encourage his dreams, invite him to be her "other whole," and he repays her kindness with lies, secrecy, a handful of sh*tty chocolates he probably picked up at the airport on his way home from France, an unceremonious breakup based on his own inability to get close to someone who has her sh*t together and with whom he could have a real partnership, and tops it off by having an affair with his ex the entire time - at an apartment just ten blocks away from his girlfriend's. Despite this, I hope you know I sincerely wish you happiness. I shall miss you with passion and wild regret. I tried my best to keep us together but you tried your best to fall apart. I am a smashing bore and why youve stuck by me so long is an indication of your loyalty. I know your life is already your punishment. I have always loved you but you broke my heart into pieces. ![]()
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